I'm running out of ideas to write again. That means I'll have to say goodbye to melancholy days soon. Ah, no no. How I missed these days, and how I'm going to miss them soon. No more lonely stuff to talk about. Once I sense a new kind of adventure is set, my mind clears off and the sadness that blinds my thoughts are vanishing in exponential (mathematical!) speed.
Last night was spectacular. Finding old friends in unexpected places, talking about philosophy and idealism, listening to live sets of metal and indie music, planning future "saving-the-world" adventures. Fun always starts after 10 in the evening. I did not let a series of mishaps earlier that day to end my Thursday in shame. It was like a dazed night with Minus the Bear's new album playing in my head.
Last truth revealed: it's about a girl. Not really the whole though; there's about stress in business, work, communications, and confusing principles piling up in my head. But yeah, the majority is about the girl. The girl. My friend affirmed "it's always about the female class." Yet the feeling I get is not sadness from rejection or failure of not getting the girl you like (again, psssh). It's about finally deciding to forget. And there are two sides of fear when trying to forget: 1) fear that you'll forget the feelings for another person after all those times you think are now wasted but not really, and 2) fear that the other person will forget their memories of you too, and two you will fall into an Abyss of back to being strangers. Who would want that, of course. But a lot of people have accepted that and have done that already too. We do what we need to do, that is part of human nature. Well I guess, I'm about to embrace that too. The closure is here.
Coming back to the province earlier, I felt the urgent need to take a break from this dilemma again. Problems from the past six months are already cramped in and I haven't had any vacation yet. Good thing what happened last night contributed to ideas of a bright plan ahead.
A new set of cards.
I've figured out the right topic about the music post I've been meaning to write for months now. Soon, soonest. You don't need lyrics, you just need to hear the soul.
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